I haven’t looked at this blog since August of 2009. After Ethan died, I lost interest in almost everything. Was I depressed? Hell, yes. Am I still? Not as bad, but pretty much.
Losing a child is the hardest thing a parent can do. Ethan was here one second and gone the next. The shock is unbelievable. But, life goes on. Even though each day is moment by moment.
Don’t misunderstand; not every day is misery and pain. I have had many good days and many good times since we lost Ethan. It’s the missing him that is so hard. You think about your children every day…they are always in the back of your mind no matter what. But when a child dies, sometimes the memory hurts, sometimes it comforts, and sometimes it makes you laugh out loud.
So. I guess Jimmy Buffett said it best; “Breathe in. Breathe out, Move on.”
